Clarity from another Retrograde Moment

I feel so insanely blessed that I wish to share my gratitude story with you.  The last three days have been a roller coaster ride for me.  Because I calmly let go and accepted the ride downward, I ended up at heights greater than I ever planned!

I have been preparing for the debut of my new internet radio show “Superintelligence Wellness”.  Since I wrote my last blog four weeks ago, my work had progressed ultra fast and ultra smoothly.  Suddenly, with three weeks to go, my would-be production assistant pulled out for personal reasons.  If this had happened even two weeks earlier, I may have called off the entire show!  As it was, I had time enough to learn the various aspects of hosting a show, including operating the studio, and I had time already to write the scripts for my opening shows.  Everything felt under control enough that the surprise news hit as a mere hiccup.

The show must go on.  The worst case scenario would be that I host and produce the show by myself.  Not much fun, not very professional, but I feel comfortable enough to know that it can be done.  Remembering that the universe wanted me to create this radio show in the first place, I therefore trust it will also take care of whatever challenges that may pop up along the way.  All I have to do is act according to guidance.

Within minutes I was writing an email to inquire about the possibility of shifting to another platform for my show, one that included a producer.  Within two hours I made my previously arranged call to a friend, who suggested another mutual friend to contact for help.  Within one day I got an enthusiastic response from the friend to join me in this effort.  Within two days I had explored both avenues and came to complete clarity.

When one door closes, another door opens.  In my case, one door closed and two doors opened.  Both would push me to greater heights, in their own ways.  And with the options, I was suddenly given the opportunity to feel clearly where I am truly aiming.  This is not about survival then.  This is about understanding my Soul’s desires.  Just because I can does not mean I must do.  I had already held a greater plan for the future of my work.  With this hiccup, I have sharpened my focus.  Now I can actually feel how good that plan was.

And so I have made a decision.  I am sticking to my original platform, now with an exciting new partner.  When you join me on my radio show, I will introduce to you this wonderful being who saved the day for me.  Thank you , Lynn!

Another cool sign.  I feel there are a few “coincidences” pointing to Lynn as the right partner for me.  But this one deserves a mention.  I woke up yesterday morning with a very blood shot outer side of my left eye.  Almost like a blood vessel had burst, while nothing in the rest of the eyes.  Never had this before.  Last night we happened to be on Skype together, and so reacquainted ourselves with each other – only the second time we ever talked.  She began the conversation with an apology for her puffy left eye.  “You are not serious!”  I exclaimed.  I told her about my eye, we both peered into the webcam and she shrieked.   We have the red in exactly the same outer side of our left eyes only!  Ok, I can chalk mine up to stress, but what about her?  We live thousands of miles apart, in different countries – no, we did not infect each other.

The universe talks to us in interesting ways.  And everything is meant for our greater good.  This is the beauty of the retrograde energies (now not only Mars, but Mercury and Saturn too).  Anything that is not perfect will rear its ugly head.  How we perceive and handle the challenge is up to us.

Let this be the formal announcement of my new radio show.  It will debut on Thursday, April 19, 2012, at 10am PST.  I have yet to schedule the episodes, but this is a sneak peek to my show page:

With gratitude to the universe, including you all,



Anyone Else Feeling the Mars Retrograde?

Pushing through molasses looking for a dropped chocolate chip, while the rest of tonight’s party foods wait to be prepared.  That’s the energy I feel drowned in right now.  It’s called Mars Retrograde!

I worked extremely hard for two months over Christmas, then went away for more than two weeks, deliberately out of wi-fi range.   The innocent me thought I could come home, jump right back in to my ambitious work plan and continue on.  Well, the Universe had other ideas.

I have been home for three weeks now.  No desire to even touch the original work plan.  A little side job for my mother ended up being done three times over.  The finish line just in sight and I came down with a stomach flu.  I have not gotten real sick like this for 4 ½ years now, since I had breast cancer.  I had totally forgotten what a drag it feels to be sick!   Four days later, still feeling very low energy and no appetite this morning, I decided to pull some oracle cards about the condition.

I chose Dr. Christiane Northrup’s Women’s Bodies, Women’s Wisdom healing card deck.  Lo and behold, it told me that after a period of exhaustive mental work, a period of passive reflection is in order, let the information I had gathered to gestate; breakthrough ideas come during times of mental relaxation or even despair…  Wow!  This is not my interpretation of the card, this is the actual printed explanation!  Did someone tell the deck what I had been doing?  I actually pulled a configuration of four cards.  I am not going to bore you with the other three, but they were exactly accurate to the word as well.  Psychic interpretation not needed here.

The accuracy of the card reading was eerie.  How can anyone not believe that everything is one in this Universe?  That answers to our problems are always out there ready for us?  That our lives are divinely planned?

Card readings are not new to me.  But is it because Neptune went into Pisces for fourteen years as of Feb 3, that suddenly I feel more at one with this mystic art?  Everyone on planet Earth is becoming more psychic now than ever (Neptune was last in Pisces 160 years ago), which I believe will move the world to a kinder, gentler place.

And back to the Mars retrograde.  It happens about every two years.  It affects everyone, but especially stronger Mars persons (e.g. your Sun, Moon or Rising sign in Aries or Scorpio).  Mars is aggressive life force, when it goes backward the energy makes us look inward for reassessment.  Like what my oracle card advised of me.  If you follow your internal calling and make adjustments, at the end of the retrograde your life improves inevitably.  The area of your life this current retrograde affects depends on your own astrological house placements.  Through the years, each retrograde moves around your chart (your life) systematically.  If this retrograde also happens over your own natal Mars position, your life is sure to take on a whole new, better direction when Mars moves forward again.

So forget those ambitious plans for now, you will only run into challenges.  Everyone on the entire planet is pushing through molasses, it’s not just me, nor you.  There is nothing that cannot wait.  Relax.  Take a few bubble baths and let the insights flow.  Then analyze, strategize, clean house.  Wait till mid April before considering new leaps.  It will be June before the energies totally return to normal.

And because of this, I am postponing my new radio show “Superintelligence Wellness” till at least the end of April.  I knew about the Mars retrograde when I called it in December, but it wasn’t retrograding yet back then, I thought I would be invincible.  Talk about ego!  I am humbled.  My stomach reminds me.

Well, judging by what good came out of Mars retrogrades in the past for myself, I am looking forward to the new me in a couple months.  Hope you have a great new you to look forward to too!