What to do, what to do…“Supposed To” vs “Want To”

Ever felt confused on the spiritual path?  One advice seemingly contradicting another, even though each one alone makes perfect sense?  This is not a product of your overactive imagination, nor spiritual teachers on strange substance.  You are experiencing the awakening process, which is the spiritual path.

At the beginning of this path is conventional logic, where the outside world feeds you what you are supposed to do, and your inner world feeds you what you want to do.  As you approach the other end of the spiritual path, you will find that what you are supposed to do is entirely fed through your heart – by your spirit and soul, while what you want to do is fed through your outer mind – by your ego and environment, pretty much the exact opposite of the beginning!  Part of the awakening process is about flipping our perceptions upside down.  How to decide what to do on a daily basis is one of these aspects that will be flipped.

As most of us are journeying somewhere along the middle of this spiritual path, encountering these flips in logic is commonplace.  Good advice carry universal truth, but each of us layer on our own unique context and understanding.  Confusion and contradiction are but illusions.  Open your mind to alternate perspectives and enjoy your amazing journey!

Would you join me on my radio show this Thursday, July 19, at 10:00am Pacific Time, for a more in depth discussion of this topic?

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/superintelligencewellness/2012/07/19/understanding-supposed-to-versus-want-to

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I Love Nature

As the beautiful full moon rises over the tree tops tonight, now just four hours away from another lunar eclipse, I cannot help but fall in love with Mother Nature again.  Perhaps it is the sentimental energy of the full moon.  It happens every single month, and I am still a sucker for its wonderment.

Three and a half days from now, I will be chatting on my radio show with nature conservationist Catriona MacGregor.  Maybe she can explain why I am so drawn to the natural world.  Her Gold Medal award winning book Partnering with Nature would say that it should not be just “I” who is drawn to nature, it should be “we”, all of us.  There are some rather interesting scientific bases for this.  We human beings are truly intimate partners of nature.  Nature is not something that exists outside of our artificial cocoons, where we decide to set foot on only when we have time and when we feel like it.

Nautilus Award recognizes books that stimulate our imagination and inspires us to new possibilities for a better world.  Catriona is an authority on environmental programs and conservation initiatives all over the world.  I cannot wait to be inspired by her wisdom on how understanding nature will transform our understanding of ourselves, and how that will improve our global environment in return.

Join us live this Thursday, June 7 at 10am Pacific time, or on archive anytime afterward: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/superintelligencewellness/2012/06/07/catriona-macgregor-on-partnering-with-nature

Blackout with a Purpose?

So far so good.  Glad to report that I have no negative aftereffects from my unplanned adventure a week ago, including my mysterious blackout.  In fact, it seems I have a bit more capacity to handle multiple inspirations simultaneously now.  I am not saying that I have suddenly become a good multi-tasker, only saying that it seems I can download information into different tasks now, instead of having to finish one item properly before starting another.  Believe me, I am happy for such a skill.  Maybe the blackout was a pre-arranged part of my path toward my life mission!

My radio show this week is titled ‘The Power of Knowing Your Life Mission’.  Life Mission is a foundation to wellness.  This is a very important topic for everyone.  The connection is not entirely obvious.  When we understand each of us came to Earth with a purpose, that the universe is always with us, moving us in the direction of our mission, then the human deep-seated subconscious feeling of “abandonment from God” can be relaxed.  Purposefulness and relaxation contribute to peace, joy, love, harmony and good health.

I hope you will join me, let me know what you think.  Thursday, May 10, at 10:00am Pacific.  You can also check out the story of my adventure in last week’s show ‘Do You Really Choose’.  http://www.blogtalkradio.com/superintelligencewellness

Cheers,

Kay

Encounter with my Shadow

Dancer Pose

“You are on the air in 5 seconds, 4-3-2-1”… And so my journey as a radio show host has begun.

It has been an interesting two weeks, to say the least.  No matter how much preparation, there is always something unexpected.  Right off the starting line, the music file did not play automatically as I had set.  And so my already chattering nerves frayed.  Then I had to introduce myself.  Sigh.  Giving my life story to the public brought out all vestiges of self-esteem issues from the depths of my being, grinning at me like a bright red beacon I could not stand.  “Your life is hardly worth telling.  No one is interested.  You are talking too much…”  My nerves got worse.   The studio buttons have a delayed reaction I never noticed before.   My producer thought I spoke before the mute engaged, disrupting the music.  My sound was off by a magnitude, way too soft and staticky.  And after what seemed an eternity, the debut show was over.

An hour later, I was brave enough to listen to the replay.  I had to, to write down what all went wrong technically.  It was a cringing moment.  But actually, I was not as bad as I thought.  The next day, I had to listen again, to check the editing.  Lo and behold, I thought I was quite decent.  In fact, I even thought I might be worth listening to!  Exactly what changed in 24 hours?  My perception.  My blood pressure.  This is why detectives take eye witness accounts with a grain of salt.

The second show came and went with a different test.  No longer superficial nerves and technology. Way deeper.  Like the Eagle Pose, I can stand on one leg in a yoga studio no problem, but can I do it alone on stage in front of a room full of experienced yoga practitioners?   And then I began to think that maybe I should have attempted the more difficult Lord of the Dance Pose instead.  Doubting myself again.  Where is my center?  My radio show content is channeled from Quan Yin.  It is not for me to decide what is right and what is not!  There is no room for my ego here.  Sigh.  I quiver with anticipation of further encounters with my own shadow.

Incidentally, shadow is the topic of my show this week.  Survival consciousness, choice.  If you feel inclined to tune in, I would be honored with your virtual presence, live on Thursday at 10am Pacific:  http://www.blogtalkradio.com/superintelligencewellness/2012/05/03/do-you-really-choose, archive listen at anytime.

Thanks for your compassion,

Kay

5 Days To Go

Only 5 days until the debut of my first radio show!  I was reminded by the prominent milestone countdown widget on my Blog/News site.

Right now, I am going through feelings reminiscent of childhood.  Like counting down to the first day of school after a long summer off.  This is a new commitment to a regular routine, which I have not experienced for decades.  No more taking off whenever I wish, or doing things only when I feel I am inspired.  The clock ticks, I must come up with weekly topics, and enough material to interest and inspire my wonderful audience.  It’s like homework.  Am I up for it?  The anxiety of entering a higher grade level.  What challenges will I encounter this year?  Will I be good enough?  But then, the excitement of meeting new friends, like-minded souls make me smile.  Immerse in meaningful conversations, new inspiration, new possibilities!  Together we will grow.  Together we will seek out the unknown.  That is the reason why I am doing this radio show!

At the meantime, back to the preparations.  Are my school supplies all set to go?  Have I figured out the settings for my microphone?   Is there more I need to know about the internet studio?   Is my room sound-deadening enough?  Will the furniture be comfortable?  Are my audio files ready?  Is my script meaningful?

When the moment arrives, I will bank on divine guidance – just hope I will be relaxed enough to let it through!  Qué sera sera, whatever will be will be… Who I am is enough.

Please come join me for my first episode “Expect A Miracle”!  This Thursday, April 19 at 10:00am PST:  www.blogtalkradio.com/superintelligencewellness

Call in!  Let us discover together!

Kay

Clarity from another Retrograde Moment

I feel so insanely blessed that I wish to share my gratitude story with you.  The last three days have been a roller coaster ride for me.  Because I calmly let go and accepted the ride downward, I ended up at heights greater than I ever planned!

I have been preparing for the debut of my new internet radio show “Superintelligence Wellness”.  Since I wrote my last blog four weeks ago, my work had progressed ultra fast and ultra smoothly.  Suddenly, with three weeks to go, my would-be production assistant pulled out for personal reasons.  If this had happened even two weeks earlier, I may have called off the entire show!  As it was, I had time enough to learn the various aspects of hosting a show, including operating the studio, and I had time already to write the scripts for my opening shows.  Everything felt under control enough that the surprise news hit as a mere hiccup.

The show must go on.  The worst case scenario would be that I host and produce the show by myself.  Not much fun, not very professional, but I feel comfortable enough to know that it can be done.  Remembering that the universe wanted me to create this radio show in the first place, I therefore trust it will also take care of whatever challenges that may pop up along the way.  All I have to do is act according to guidance.

Within minutes I was writing an email to inquire about the possibility of shifting to another platform for my show, one that included a producer.  Within two hours I made my previously arranged call to a friend, who suggested another mutual friend to contact for help.  Within one day I got an enthusiastic response from the friend to join me in this effort.  Within two days I had explored both avenues and came to complete clarity.

When one door closes, another door opens.  In my case, one door closed and two doors opened.  Both would push me to greater heights, in their own ways.  And with the options, I was suddenly given the opportunity to feel clearly where I am truly aiming.  This is not about survival then.  This is about understanding my Soul’s desires.  Just because I can does not mean I must do.  I had already held a greater plan for the future of my work.  With this hiccup, I have sharpened my focus.  Now I can actually feel how good that plan was.

And so I have made a decision.  I am sticking to my original platform, now with an exciting new partner.  When you join me on my radio show, I will introduce to you this wonderful being who saved the day for me.  Thank you , Lynn!

Another cool sign.  I feel there are a few “coincidences” pointing to Lynn as the right partner for me.  But this one deserves a mention.  I woke up yesterday morning with a very blood shot outer side of my left eye.  Almost like a blood vessel had burst, while nothing in the rest of the eyes.  Never had this before.  Last night we happened to be on Skype together, and so reacquainted ourselves with each other – only the second time we ever talked.  She began the conversation with an apology for her puffy left eye.  “You are not serious!”  I exclaimed.  I told her about my eye, we both peered into the webcam and she shrieked.   We have the red in exactly the same outer side of our left eyes only!  Ok, I can chalk mine up to stress, but what about her?  We live thousands of miles apart, in different countries – no, we did not infect each other.

The universe talks to us in interesting ways.  And everything is meant for our greater good.  This is the beauty of the retrograde energies (now not only Mars, but Mercury and Saturn too).  Anything that is not perfect will rear its ugly head.  How we perceive and handle the challenge is up to us.

Let this be the formal announcement of my new radio show.  It will debut on Thursday, April 19, 2012, at 10am PST.  I have yet to schedule the episodes, but this is a sneak peek to my show page:

www.blogtalkradio.com/superintelligencewellness

With gratitude to the universe, including you all,

Kay

Anyone Else Feeling the Mars Retrograde?

Pushing through molasses looking for a dropped chocolate chip, while the rest of tonight’s party foods wait to be prepared.  That’s the energy I feel drowned in right now.  It’s called Mars Retrograde!

I worked extremely hard for two months over Christmas, then went away for more than two weeks, deliberately out of wi-fi range.   The innocent me thought I could come home, jump right back in to my ambitious work plan and continue on.  Well, the Universe had other ideas.

I have been home for three weeks now.  No desire to even touch the original work plan.  A little side job for my mother ended up being done three times over.  The finish line just in sight and I came down with a stomach flu.  I have not gotten real sick like this for 4 ½ years now, since I had breast cancer.  I had totally forgotten what a drag it feels to be sick!   Four days later, still feeling very low energy and no appetite this morning, I decided to pull some oracle cards about the condition.

I chose Dr. Christiane Northrup’s Women’s Bodies, Women’s Wisdom healing card deck.  Lo and behold, it told me that after a period of exhaustive mental work, a period of passive reflection is in order, let the information I had gathered to gestate; breakthrough ideas come during times of mental relaxation or even despair…  Wow!  This is not my interpretation of the card, this is the actual printed explanation!  Did someone tell the deck what I had been doing?  I actually pulled a configuration of four cards.  I am not going to bore you with the other three, but they were exactly accurate to the word as well.  Psychic interpretation not needed here.

The accuracy of the card reading was eerie.  How can anyone not believe that everything is one in this Universe?  That answers to our problems are always out there ready for us?  That our lives are divinely planned?

Card readings are not new to me.  But is it because Neptune went into Pisces for fourteen years as of Feb 3, that suddenly I feel more at one with this mystic art?  Everyone on planet Earth is becoming more psychic now than ever (Neptune was last in Pisces 160 years ago), which I believe will move the world to a kinder, gentler place.

And back to the Mars retrograde.  It happens about every two years.  It affects everyone, but especially stronger Mars persons (e.g. your Sun, Moon or Rising sign in Aries or Scorpio).  Mars is aggressive life force, when it goes backward the energy makes us look inward for reassessment.  Like what my oracle card advised of me.  If you follow your internal calling and make adjustments, at the end of the retrograde your life improves inevitably.  The area of your life this current retrograde affects depends on your own astrological house placements.  Through the years, each retrograde moves around your chart (your life) systematically.  If this retrograde also happens over your own natal Mars position, your life is sure to take on a whole new, better direction when Mars moves forward again.

So forget those ambitious plans for now, you will only run into challenges.  Everyone on the entire planet is pushing through molasses, it’s not just me, nor you.  There is nothing that cannot wait.  Relax.  Take a few bubble baths and let the insights flow.  Then analyze, strategize, clean house.  Wait till mid April before considering new leaps.  It will be June before the energies totally return to normal.

And because of this, I am postponing my new radio show “Superintelligence Wellness” till at least the end of April.  I knew about the Mars retrograde when I called it in December, but it wasn’t retrograding yet back then, I thought I would be invincible.  Talk about ego!  I am humbled.  My stomach reminds me.

Well, judging by what good came out of Mars retrogrades in the past for myself, I am looking forward to the new me in a couple months.  Hope you have a great new you to look forward to too!

Kay